We can find God in everything. We do not have to try for He simply IS. His presence fills the whole universe and pervades every creature. Our concern should not be to reach some exalted spiritual state but to begin where we are. To see that he gives Himself to us in everything even though we may not always be aware of His presence. But to know the truth of the fact. If we know deep down, this knowing will bring with it a quality of listening. A listening beyond the ordinary. Listening that brings about, through the light of the Holy Spirit , a compassionate awareness. Everything we experience in life, however onerous or unappealing, is a message of God's will. Sometimes that can be hard to see or accept. On closer analysis it is pride and self will that stops us letting go and trusting with a child-like simplicity, His holy will. Just as Jesus came to do the will of His Father, through His self-sacrifice and suffering, He also teaches us to say "Thy Will be done". We must wait in peace and without anxiety, simply fixing our gaze on Him and our own nothingness. Happy is the person who knows he is nothing. This seems to go against everything we feel. But from that seeming nothingness the mysterious gift of the Holy Spirit makes all things new.
We exist so often on the surface of things, satisfied with so little. The brain is forever active, making sense of what we experience. In a sense it is sorting out information. But the imagination is a different thing. That is why we must try gently to bring it into a state of control. A quiet and compassionate mind brings with it simplicity and clarity to see beyond the surface. To live this way gives the soul the space to receive the warmth and flame of the Holy Spirit. Distractions in prayer do not mean that we not praying deeply. Like a good parent who gives a child a toy, we give the mind something to occupy it when it is restless. Try saying a short prayer like the Our Father or Hail Mary as slowly as you can, and this will bring you again into calmer waters. The Holy Spirit prays in us, and whether it is by word or in silence, it is the same Spirit praying in us. He is really touching different strings of the same instrument. And do not be discouraged that you do not feel anything at the time, but whether afterwards you feel better and more determined to serve God. We are on the same journey together. It is a great adventure, to be led by the hand of the Lord.
To know our need for God is to allow Him to embrace us. Just as in the parable of the prodigal son. He awaits for us to come of our own free will. His love wishes us to choose the good. At every moment, there is a choice to make. To go away, to stay where we are or to move forward. True repentance is moving forward to embrace Him. Only then can we know the mercy and forgiveness of God that sets us free from the slavery of sin. We must gather together all our energy to be able to come back to our true home in Christ. Where there is love, there is mercy and compassion This is not a theory, but a fact. To learn to be quiet, to give the mind a rest is essential for spiritual vitality. To be simple, clear and inwardly quiet, is to know the flame, the warmth of His love.
A mind that is disordered and confused is a mind that seeks security in a far off country outside the embrace of our loving Lord. Be clear then about what you want to do in your life. If you are not, wait upon Him in childlike trust and He will guide you.
Prayer is quite simple really. I think it is us who make it complicated. That is why many people, good people, do not know how to pray and soon give up. We must try to set aside the idea that it is something we do separate from everything else. Then the insight into the fact that God sees our whole life in an instant, enables us to see that we are always in the presence of Him who sustains us, despite our sins and weaknesses.
It is like leaving a door open, if you leave the door open the breeze of the evening comes in. You cannot invite it: you cannot prepare for it; you cannot say, "I must, I must not". Just leave the door open. This means a very simple act, an act which is not of the will, which is not of pleasure, which is not projected by the tricks of thought, but of love. A connection beyond the limitations of self. Then through this open door comes something that cannot be measured in time. If we can begin to see that, the process of transformation can begin.